First, here’s the Elf Death dress in progress (plus Torii):
It still needs pockets (which I forgot to put in). And an underskirt. The lace capelette thing needs the most tweaking. I’ve already reset it once and I’m thinking I need to take it off and completely realign it. On the plus side, it’s easy to detach as it can’t be washed so I only used very simple basting stitches so I can take the lace off after I sweat my a^^ off next weekend.
So far today I’ve thought:
Yesterday Shaina messaged me on the address of the rental house we got for the festival. My brain started this morning on the hamster wheel of infinite anxiety. Why did she send me the address? Was it this weekend? They couldn’t wait any longer for me in Charleston? I know we picked the last weekend of June. But did they change it and forget that I wasn’t part of whatever confab they had? Do they really even want me along or care if I don’t go.
Scenario: A coworker won’t let me have the “short” side when we work together at the Circ desk. I need to sit with my feet flat on the floor to help the achilles tendon spur issue. I don’t want to explain my medical thing to him mostly because he irritated the snot out if me last week and I just don’t want to fool with him at all. And he complains to the director like he does about everything. And it’s a whole thing.
My phone decided again that it only wants to do internet, photos, etc. No actual phone functions like making or receiving calls, ditto text messages. It went down sometime on Thursday and I realized it Saturday evening when I tried to text Bestie and it wouldn’t send. This is not my crazy thought. This happened. So when I hard rebooted it, I had a voicemail from the water company. No details. Again, this part is real. I can’t call them back until Monday morning. So is there evidence of a bad leak? Did something nasty leak into my pipes? Is that why Torii puked up her breakfast and a hairball and my stomach has been icky all afternoon? Did they not get my payment on Friday? The bank shows it went through, but was there a computer glitch? Is there a problem with the change to the new trash service (it’s the water, sanitation, and sewer company and the sanitation is now outsourced but still billed through the city services)? New people moving onto this street keep effing up their address because they don’t realize how wonky the house numbers are, so did someone new try to sign up for water etc with my address?
Obviously the last one is giving me the greatest fits because there are just too many plausible to vaguely plausible options.
But the only thing is, as many wacky ifs as my brain has cycled through (I only gave you the possible in reality questions), I haven’t worked up into a full panic attack over any of them. The cycle of questions for each was pretty short, probably no more than 10-15 minutes for each of the three. I’ve had upsetting moments with each but I talked myself back from the abyss.
My brain let me pull it back from the abyss.
I can get better. I can fix myself just like I can fix this dress.
p.s. Speaking of: I also made not-quite-fingerless gloves. And I ordered a cloak pin for the shawl(ish) collar and a silver wood elf crownlet. I’m so glad I decided to go low key and not get overly fancy. <eye roll>
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