I've done a lot the last two weekends. So much that I'm not sure how I've done it all. I definitely couldn't have accomplished so much even just last summer. I'm pretty sure I didn't get as much done over all of last summer as I've done in just a couple of weekends.
Then I look around and see so kuch which needs to be done.
So I'm confused. How am I doing so much and still functioning? How is there still so much to be done? Am I truly functioning?
Because I'm flippin' tired, dude. And it seems -- to me at least -- like I spend more time trying to remember a word. And saying the wrong word more often. And forgetting what I was doing in the middle of doing it.
I know these "senior mments" are common and don't necessarily mean I'm losing brain functions. It's just . . .
You know in Star Wars: A New Hope when Luke buys R2D2 and C3PO from tge Jawas and they're back at Owen and Beru's farm and C3PO powers down and yoy know because his eye lights dim?* That's me as soon as my ass touches couch cushion. My brain switches off due to low power mode.
I still need to retill so I can plant the main veggie garden. This weekend I'm driving two hours after my one-hour commute from work for a friend's 40th bday. I'll spend the night in a hotel, maybe spend more time with her the next morning, and drive (another two hours) home. My brother's birthday is the following weekend. Bestie is visiting the next two weekends after that and I really really need to clean everything because my house is a disaster and I'm just too beat to care.
And there's all of the usual cooking and laundry and groceries and worrying about money and work.
Sorry this got whinier than I planned. I did have an actual plan when I started typing. I'm pretty sure I did. But now I have no idea where I wanted to go with this.
See, this is why I really need to type the title first. Then I can maybe figure out what my theme was after I meander off topic. And wix will save at least most of what I typed as a draft, but I'm pretty sure only titled posts save.
Obviously there is a title by the time you read this but for me so far -- sadly -- it's still untitled. Because at this point I'm so exhausted and confused I can't even remember what words I was looking for.
Which is as good a conclusion as any.
p.s. At least I more or less circled back, if not to the original point, to an earlier concept. Which might actually be today's intended theme for all you or I know at this point.
*If you weren't picturing the scene as you read I'm sorry but you are totally in the wrong blog.
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